"A long day"

Well, congratulations for her,find the right person who will take care of her, makes her happy and brighten her day.
May God always bless both of them, make sure she'll fine and safe with him, anytime and anywhere


I prove and show her what i said to her
But doesn't mean i stop here,no,never...
I just change it all with a different way
The way that i will live the rest day of mine which i don't even know how much it left considering my condition
But back again, i'm just a stranger, who lost in time, and never expect it will be like this


So, i still care, i still pray, not for myself, but for you
I still prove and show it, just with a different way


PS : Guess what...

Dear Ms. Right

I…..have no idea what you said about but here my words

Its almost 2 months and I always try to prove everything I ever said even you always ignore it all away

You said its perfectly waste your time but I don’t know which part of your time here

Why? I’m not saying that you’re wrong, but you just make me really confused about the time that you said. 

I don’t talk to much to you, cause I don’t want to interrupt you every time

When I talk, I always asked “what happened to you?” not because I just ask or threw some bullshit right on your face like the others did, that’s just because I care, I really care and show you that I really do

What I know is talk to you is not easy as flipping my hand upside down, it took every courage in me just to talk to you and even you don’t answer me over and over again

Dont ask me what happen to me, do i have to answer the question that you already knew the answer?do i have to make it round and round again with saying the same thing?the point is you know the answer, or the reason

What the matters are you and you and you...ah, you know the reason even its not enough to show you and make you believe that i really do

Look, i've show you, but feels you always ignore it..but back again, thats your right and i dont mind and cannot complain about that

Why all the things are going to be like that? well i dont even know what do you mean about things..or maybe i just dont know why (sounds like moony singing in the bathroom)

But one thing for sure, if you think that im give up, you got it wrong

"If You Were Me"

Actually, i dont have to make it round and round and round and round again...cause its not me who made it

If my heart lied, i wouldn't feel like this, be like this
All you see is pain and misery, cause you're my happiness

If you were me, you would feel what i feel
If you were me you wouldn't be able to move, to go anywhere
You would feel this heart still beats your name even it keeps bleeding
You can't turn around and leave here
And you can't find someone who makes you feel like what i feel, no matter they still believe in love or not

Cuz  i don't  give up on you like the others

If you were me, you would be where am i and you cant go anywhere

Cause this is me, not like what you think, not like the others

But if you think i'm lying, ask God

I don't have to say "in the name of God", cause He knows the truth, knows that i never lie, especially to you

Chapter #10

Suddenly, my hands want to write again.. weird enough in my condition now, trapped in the ----- disease (according to doctor’s diagnose)..but at least I still can do it, just like those days before

Dear “Moon” , that’s your right to say I just make it round and round all over again

Maybe I’m stupid enough for being too honest with you. But I’m not the others, who sell craps, throw some bullshit, lie to you, act like you’re just a toy or a trophy

Its just me, with all my flaws and shortage, who always take you as a great woman

I don’t playing around, cause you’re not a toy. I don’t compete cause you’re not a trophy. I don't flirt, its useless

The only reason for everything I do and say to you

The reason is I love you, without any reason, still, and always